How deep do you want to go?
And are you prepared for what the journey will reveal?
Yesterday I shared with you the start of my healing journey over the last 18 months. This second part goes beyond the body healing and medical stuff into the deeper stuff which is only now slowly starting to make sense to me.
So we completed our 10 week half lap of Australia in July. It was healing, restorative and exactly what I thought my body needed.
Turns out my soul wants more, and not just more travelling, although that’s definitely on the ‘must do’ list.
My soul wants to be seen and be heard, it wants appreciation and mostly it wants love and self care.
Sounds like a whole load of woo woo wishful thinking doesn’t it?
I’ve been on a spiritual journey for the longest time. We all are - on a spiritual journey - only some of us just have no idea of the journey we’re on.
Women sitting on a cliff by Vlad Bagacian on Unsplash
In 2016 my intuition was firing and on point. I was running journaling workshops with spiritual elements, my writing was coming from a full stocked creative well and I was surrounding myself with people wanting to heal and understand themselves better.
At the same time I was heavily involved with volunteer work and working full time. I was doing so much, being everything to everyone and my ego was loving the attention.
My soul probably not so much, as an empath I was picking up on so much of others people’s pain and I had no real tools in place for blocking it. My practices for self love were non existent.
2018 was a tough year for us as a family, with some challenges I felt ill equipped to deal with. I lived in constant fear of all the things that could go wrong.
My people pleasing, word swallowing, confrontation avoiding soul was slowly drowning. As a mother I was simply trying to hold our family together. And as is the case for most of us, I kept sucking hard on the snorkel whilst struggling to keep myself afloat.
Put your own oxygen mask on first they say, but do we actually listen.
2020 was a monumental year worldwide with Covid and with it came a whole new set of life challenges. While the world was slowly melting down, I finally had an excuse to lock myself away in my home and only take care of the bare essentials.
Staying home, not going anywhere, not doing all that I had done previously became the socially expected and accepted norm.
My soul rejoiced as much as it felt the pain of everyone’s suffering.
Still I kept powering through, as shocking as living through a world wide pandemic was, I felt like it gave me a reprieve from a world that felt heavy and hard.
Then we lost my dad at the beginning of 2021 and life felt like it would never be normal again. We also lost my uncle the same week and almost lost my mum too - all totally unrelated and not connected with Covid either. Just life happening.
Grief is much like a sucker punch to the gut.
I’d been holding on for so, so long. I know last year was my body finally saying enough is enough. The snorkel was no longer working and things needed to change.
Sometimes we have to get really unwell before we can find a way to make the necessary changes.
If you’ve read this far then I’m almost certain you know what I’m talking about, or you’ve experienced something similar at some time, unless of course you’re my mother who usually reads everything I write 💖
My half lap of Oz was great but it still didn’t restore the fire in my heart or the zip in my step that I expected it would. My soul was still crying on the inside. My body was still not healing as I expected it should be. I was still feeling miserable.
It’s only been this last month, through a series of what could have been totally unrelated decisions, where everything seems to suddenly be coming together. The puzzle pieces are finally forming a picture which makes sense to me.
Below are my decisions which have turned things around and helped me finally understand what’s going on with my body. Some may call them hocus pocus or woo woo, some may say they’re plain crazy. Some may just nod and agree.
🔥 I started taking a supplement called MHE3 which is an extract from the hops plant that creates thermogenesis in the body, and burns visceral fat in the belly. Visceral fat is a MAJOR precursor to some of our deadliest diseases and is mostly attributed to lifestyle. 😭
🔥 I had a psychic medium reading with Alice, who amongst many other things suggested I should see an acupuncture specialist to help rebalance my energy.
🔥 I attended a workshop with Inna Segal called “Your Intuitive Path to Wellness” and discovered how to heal my energy by clearing trauma and emotional blocks.
🔥 I found an acupuncturist who specialises in Chinese medicine, and with one treatment I’ve seen true physical improvements in my body. He’s given me more understanding about what’s going on than a lifetime of traditional learning could give me. I also now have the knowledge to make changes to my diet based on specific requirements for my body.
All totally unrelated activities, yet all with a common theme telling me very similar messages.
The thing is, only you know what your body needs, only you can keep trying things until you find the things that work best for you. You create your own magic 💖
Hands filled with magic by GrumpyBeere on Pixabay
And honestly your decisions don’t need other people’s judgment or beliefs, or their advice or experiences. What works for some, won’t always work for all. Don’t get me wrong, they often mean well, but they’re not you, they haven’t lived your life, nor do they know what you have experienced or what you need.
So listen to it all, take what makes sense for you and then let the rest go. Do only what feels right for you.
Mostly, trust yourself to know what you need and be kind, always be kind.
It’s not only about healing your body, it’s about understanding what got you to where you are in the first place. And it’s never simply a bad diet, or an unhealthy lifestyle. We make those choices because of the other things which are happening in our lives.
Our emotions, our thinking, our way of being all contribute to our health, our weight, our mindset, and our mental well being.
True holistic wellness is looking after all of that and more.
Keep smiling and healing, Fi 🌻
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